Don’t text me back? I understand. Don’t hang out with me? I understand. But, when I start not giving a fuck anymore, you better understand.
I just wanted to see if anyone else experiences this as well. So throughout my whole life i have never felt ‘understood’? I’ve never felt 100% comfortable telling anyone anything even till this day there is so much stuff i keep to myself. Even from my best friends who I’ve known for over 5 years…something in me just feels like even though they would tell me anything i feel like i can’t do the same? I’ve always had different interests as them and sometimes when i’m around them i catch myself thinking ‘what am i doing here? I’m not like them i’m just fooling myself i don’t belong here’ but then other times we’re having so much fun and i can’t believe i’d ever even think i don’t belong in our group. I just feel so alienated from people sometimes. I don’t know maybe it’s just me who is the problem maybe i just expect to get more from people because i would give them anything without thinking twice about it but i guess some people just can’t because that’s just who they are. It just sucks because they aren’t to blame they are good friends it’s just me who is looking for more, a deeper connection that i can’t seem to find with anyone.
